Do you ever find yourself thinking about the day in an anxious way? Whether it is good anxiety or bad, you just can’t seem to stop thinking about the day’s objectives. I do this from the sound of the alarm up until I drift to sleep. I try to have the perfect day everyday. I was unaware that I do this until I read a blog written by a person whom I have never met, but have the utmost respect and admiration for. Her name is Sara Walker, a fellow Lipscomb Alum of my husband. She recently gave birth to a stillborn baby girl and has now been diagnosed with stage four colon cancer. Her battle is unfathomably large, but you would not BELIEVE her strength. She gives one-hundred percent of the glory to God, and does not take credit for any of it. She has helped me grow closer with Him in the past few weeks than I have ever been. One of her more poignant posts was about the freedom she has received from God. She speaks of always trying to have that “perfect day”. She goes on to tell her readers that we are free from these anxieties. She says that her cancer is a gift from God, because this was revealed to her through her struggle. My favorite lesson from her is to SAVOR each moment, and not to worry about tomorrow because He is already there. WOWZERS.
This morning, Jesus spoke to me through my little devotional book. He said, “Instead of trying to fit this day into a preconceived mold, relax and be on the lookout for what I am doing…this is far better than trying to make things go according to your own plan. Anxiety wraps you up in yourself, trapping you in your thoughts. When you look to Me and whisper My Name, you break free and receive My help. Focus on Me and you will find Peace in My Presence.”
So, today, that is my objective. I am going to savor like Sara. I am going to focus on God’s plan, not mine. I am going to whisper his name when anxiety seeps in. Man, it’s unreal how freeing it feels.
God, please help me to be aware of Your goals for this day. This is Your day, not mine. And I need to remember that. Thank You for Sara and Your ministry through her. Thank You for The Cross and Your Sacrifice. Thank You for our freedom. I love you, Lord.
Sara’s Journal - http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/sarawalker/journal